In the Pursuit of Happyness

So I finally went and this well talked about movie the other night and I do have to say that it is a very powerful and moving movie. Will and Jaden Smith did excellent jobs in there roles and even if it was Jaden’s first role in the big leagues, he was a natural.

I don’t want to go into too much about the actors, I want to talk about the story it’s self. I have read I don’t know how many articles and interviews about the story of Chris Gardner and his struggles in life. One thing that worries me is that the story is right about a lot of things yet hard to believe in other ways. Maybe I need to read the book to fully understand, but I did leave the theater with a few questions that were unanswered. First of all, why is life so hard and why is there a price tag on everything? I mean money it seems has been a downfall for more than one marriage that I know of. Yes we make bad decisions in life sometimes, but was his wife really that unwise? I’d also like to hear more about his past and where he learned to be such a strong father and man.

The biggest thing about the movie and life in general for me is; how do you know and find the one thing you really want to do in life? How do you find the one job that will make you happy? How do you find the one person that will make you happy? Some people say “Well your only 35, you have plenty of time to find a wife and job” then here I am saying “Damn I’m 35 and I haven’t found anything that makes me happy in life”. I’ve been through god knows how many jobs and more women than I wish to count.

I’m somewhat excited because I somewhat feel what he went through while looking for a job. I’ve been pursuing a truck driving job for a little over a year and it’s been an uphill battle since the beginning. I know I’m close to finally making it happen, but what if I’ve wasted a year of my life only to find out that it’s not what I thought it was and I’m unhappy again? What then, more depression, more crappy jobs, more debt, more Bloomington/Normal? Does life ever really give you a movie ending? ? ?